Sand Slinging (22/11/12)

The Dream

I get a job at a small convention center or party venue as a kitchen helper and janitor. I am shown how to clean the blackboards that are all around the walls of the room with what looks like a dangerous chemical mixture and a hose. The guy teaching me has a mask. 

As we are finishing cleaning the room, a bunch of people are suddenly there and it is a political party leadership convention. There are four candidates and they have to answer a series of questions. The small crowd made up of young political junkies decide on which one goes home, round by round. 

In the first round one man says almost nothing and is sent home. I am sad to see him leave because I had followed his political career and interviewed him for a school assignment. The rest of the staff liked him too and made a banner in his memory.

 The next challenge involved the candidates going into a giant sandbox and wiping away all traces of them being in the sand, such as footprints. I was suddenly included in this competition. We all raced to win and one of the candidates raised her hand to signal she had won, but everyone could see there were still footprints around her. We were all angry because she had cheated and won. That’s all I remember. 

Meanings*  

Janitor: To see or dream that you are a janitor suggests that you need to work on cleaning up an aspect of your life.

Chalkboard: To see a chalkboard represents the classroom and the difficulties you may have experienced in school. There is a lesson to be learned from this dream. You may feel that you are being put to the test. Alternatively, it signifies your debts.

Politician: To see a politician in your dream suggests that you need to choose and take a side. Alternatively, the politician may reflect your desires for political office or your interest in world affairs.

Sand/Sandbox: To see sand in your dream signifies a shift in perspective or a change in your attitude. To see or play in a sandbox in your dream suggests that you are taking a situation too seriously. You need to lighten up and enjoy the experience. Alternatively, the dream refers to your childish or juvenile behavior.

Footprints: To see footprints in your dream symbolize pride and heritage. It may also suggest that you are a follower in someone else's footsteps. You are lacking originality and initiative. Alternatively, footprints indicate something or someone you have missed.

Cheating: To dream that you are being cheated in a game suggests that you feel someone is not being honest with you. You feel slighted, inadequate and insecure.

On The Couch

I feel like there is an aspect of my life that needs to be cleaned up or cleared up. I feel like I need to take a side and chose between two or more things to make my life clearer. To do this I need to erase many of the things I thought I knew or the debts I think I owe and take the problem on from a fresh angle. Once I am in the sandbox it is clear that my attitude and perspective has changed, but to do so is taking this problem too seriously. In times like these, I miss some of the people that can help me or the situations in the past that shielded me from such dilemmas. I feel like others have these people or situations that help them and I feel slighted by this which leads me to feel insecure and inadequate.

Well, even my subconscious thinks I over think. I have a feeling that this dream relates to my employment situation right now. I have a couple part time jobs (or quarter time jobs really) and I am still going to interviews for other jobs. I am worried about what to do if I have to decide between jobs. This might seem like a trivial worry, but I hate quitting jobs after such a short time or refusing others because it feels like going back on my word. I feel as if to get through this I need to erase what I have learned about the "real world" before I was in it, forget the debts I feel I owe to people and take sides based on more practical methods. Then my brain shows me that I need to relax, to not take this job situation so seriously and actually enjoy all the good offers coming my way. All this battling between my conscious and subconscious makes me want the security of people and things I used to have and now miss. My girlfriend is living in another city and after 21 years of having the stability of school I am in a strange, new place without this structure. I can't jump on a bus and see my girlfriend in five minutes or immerse myself in school to solve my dilemmas. I feel sad and inadequate because some other people I know have these helpful mechanisms around for them and I don't. In the end, maybe my brain is saying to stop thinking so hard, make gut decisions and to get out my self pity. My mind is trying to pull me out of my self destructive ways.  

Or maybe the dream means I miss playing in sandboxes. I don't see many of them around anymore. I'm going to the park. Bye!

*All analysis courtesy of www.dreammoods.com